I'm Sick & Tired Of Being Sick & Tired

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired... LITERALLY. I've been so sick lately, and nothing is explaining why, or making me feel better. To top it all off... It's VALENTINE'S DAY -___- Valentine's Day is just a day to be able to be corny for the one you care about. But I had a valentines. He gave me a perfect bear, and chocolates, and my favorite candy <3 It was perfect. But I feel like he doesn't love me the way he use to. I feel like he's getting bored. & I feel like there's only one way to change that ... Ugh. It's just stressful! I'm trying my hardest to keep what we have, but I just think it's making me look stupid and feel miserable. I just want him to kiss me and say "shayla , I feel the same way for you now as i did almost 7 months ago". I want that. But I know he doesn't feel it. I'm exhausted. I'm chasing a wave of problems that touch the sky. I'm only 5'3... I just can't reach the problems and fix them on my own... I needa boost. I need his help. I need him to let me know that we're still a team and we're in this together. I want to feel like the perfect couple we use to be. Before the arguing, and assumptions. When we use to be HAPPY. Yah... I miss it. But I'm willing to fix it in anyway i can. He's all I've got left, and i don't think anyone understands that. It's all or nothing. I'm trying to change to make us work, but I'm getting tired of chasing behind something that's not willing to give me a break. I love him so much buuuuuuuut ... I want things to just go back to how they were.