There's Someone Out There That's Perfect For You

Whoever's reading this has had to move on at a certain time in their life... Correct? And how did it feel...? It LITERALLY hurts. It makes you feel weak and tired. It makes you feel incomplete and sad. I have this feeling in my stomach that I feel like no one else could possibly ever understand. I have to move on from something that I'm absolutely in love with... But I'm doing it for myself. You know it's time to move on when the person who once made you smile, and laugh, and love now makes you cry, and feel nothing but hurt. I'm sitting infront of my computer right now unable to think about nothing but him. You want to go back in time and relive it all. You want to feel his kisses and smile because of his hugs... But you know it's not what's best for you. People freakin change!!! And as much as you expect it to be perfect forever... Not all of all of us get the long end of the stick. Don't get me wrong ... You might have someone that's absolutely perfect for you... But you might also have someone who's TEMPORARY. I don't quite have all the answers, or I'd tell you how you know when someone's temporary. It'd save us all alot of time huh?  I'm so over trying to tell myself that I'm good enough for someone! I'm so over mentally confusing myself. My head is over here saying "Shayla, MOVE ON! MOVE ON! MOVE ON!" and my hearts over here saying "Hold on... I think I can take a little more. Don't give up yet. Don't... Not yet". And then the one I love is over here saying "Let go... I don't want you anymore"... It hurts when all of the sudden someone decides they don't want to be with you anymore. When they just hit you with a text message that makes your jaw hurt from trying not to cry. It's amazing how someone who swears they "love" you can get up and leave isn't it? Leave you when it feels like you want them the most. You feel like your hanging on by a thread. Like at any second your whole world is gonna crash. You... The person reading this. You know someone that means EVERYTHING to you. They've been here through everything and they're always here when you need to smile. Never let them go. Text them right now and tell them how much you love them. Call them right now and ask them how their day is. Let them tell you all of their problems. If you plan on always being here for them TELL them. Tell them that they make your day. Tell them how happy they make you. Do it now. Before one day they're gone. Before one day you turn around and check your phone to a text saying they can't be in your life anymore... Before they forget and run into someone else who tells them everyday. When you HAVE to move on from someone that meant everything to you, you're gonna take it hard. You're gonna cry... and that's ok. You're gonna feel like no one understands, and there's something wrong with you... But after that your gonna smile. I'm saying this so nonchalant like it's going to happen fast and be easy, but TRUST ME... I know it won't, and I know it's not, but while you're going through this hurt keep a little faith in yourself. Tell yourself this feeling will pass even though you feel like it won't. You were strong with them, and you can be without them. I'm gonna be real with you guys right now, I'm sitting at my computer wiping a few tears. But that's okay. I'm crying so I can prepare myself for the days I'll be able to smile (Even though right now I can't even imagine was smiling feels like). I've been doing the most stupid things. I got rid of everything that makes me think of his name. I know that might sound kind of immature, but if it makes you a little happier than I say go for it. You know what makes it the worst? He decided to move on when I needed him the most... When I feel like I have no one. But I guess in the end all you have is yourself anyway. You weren't born with any life guarantees. You weren't born with a promise written on your foot saying you'll always be happy and have the person you always wanted standing right beside you at all times. As a matter of fact... By the time you die you'll have met so many people that by that time you don't even remember. Ya know? You love and you loose... You waste your time and then realize how dumb you were for doing so much for someone that doesn't even wanna do the one one and only thing they ever did for you... Make you happy. I know this is only one of the many heartbreaks I'm going to go through, and thinking that thought makes me want to like throw up, because I can't imagine going through this ever again... But I know I will, and I'm prepared. You have to go through loosing love to find who you belong with. I hate to have lost, but I know one day I'm gonna wake up and smile about life. About every little pretty thing it has to offer. There's someone out there that's perfect for you. They're everything you're looking for. So let the ones who want to leave LEAVE. Accept that they aren't ready for everything amazing you have to offer. Don't let a bump in the road change your path. Don't stand there until a miracle happens... Walk over it.

And this song kinda puts my blog in a simpler way (It's a good country song, I swear!) :

And hopefully you have good supporters like me to get you through it <3