My Head Has Gotten Enough Attention

What have i learned? I've learned that when you listen to your HEAD Your HEART Gets hurt. I've listened to my head for too long. I've made the same mistakes for too long. What does that mean you ask? It means that I'M DONE. Going to sleep in a shitty mood is getting old. crying, and complaining is getting old. Listening to everyone else IS GETTING OLD. I've listened to my head for so long because that's where all the advice was. That's where I went when i didn't know what to do next, because everything that everyone has told me is right there. But guess what? I don't need to listen to my head anymore. My head is just a whole bunch of jumbled up, confusing, disorganized, cheap, selfish advice that was given to me by people who know NOTHING about what i'm going through. I can tell them how i feel, but they'll never know the whole story. They'll never know every little detail of what's going on because it's MY life. I've depended on people to tell me what they thought was right. How stupid of me... How stupid of me to put my decicions in other people's hands. I've come to a conclusion that I'll be ok. I don't need ANYONE. I don't need a boy with a pretty face, but a suck ass ego. I just don't. I deserve so much more. I deserve something that he wasn't giving me. I wasted so much time on what I WANTED that i forgot what i deserved. Love isn't everything. As a matter of fact it's just an aspect. Just because you love someone doesn't mean you need them. I was the girl in the movies that was a MESS because I was so sad and confused as to why that boy cldnt just love me. I was pathetic. Now I'm the girl at the end of the movie that's giving him one last kiss good-bye and walking away into the rainy mist. Everyone laughs when they find out about me being done with US because i've said it a thousand times, but this time is different. This time I've just had enough. This time i know it's real because of how well i'm handling it. Sure I still went home in cried my little eyes out, but this time I cried... and then got back to my feet and smiled. I told myself that time changes things. Time changes people. I guess time has changed me. I never give up though. Never have. Girls with a future don't give up.. I'm simply reminding myself that i can have something better than what i had. I'm taking time for MYSELF now. I'm taking this time to love myself. I've loved someone else for too long. I forgot how to love myself actually. He made me think that I had to be better than who i was, or some girl would snag my spot. That's not what you do to someone you love. Ya know? I'm not your average girl. Nope. Not me. I'm so much more. It's just that time i guess. It's that time to step back and walk away. Sure i love him, and will miss him, and wish things could have worked, but i'll also remember why I'm making this decision whenever I feel that way. When he misses me I hope he remembers why we stand where we do. Because HE made the decision to make the wrong decisions. I wish him the best. I hope someone else does everything i couldn't. If she comes along... I hope he Doesn't blaim her for my mistakes. I hope he loves her for every wrong SHE Does. I hope he doesn't compair her to me. Let her be her own person. I hope she's what he wants... He hurt me... But i learned alot along the way. It's time to listen to my HEART now... My head has gotten enough attention.