V O I C E S

Being grounded sucks... I feel freakin trapped. Staring at four walls can give you more of a headache than watching three of your younger siblings for Three hours. I think i'm gonna scream... For once in my life i wish i had a FRIEND. Someone to talk too.. someone... ANYONE? The silence is getting old. Are two Ds really woth this torture mom? Ugh... Last time i was grounded was like before last summer? No... It was during the summer, But i didn't care then because it was summer. I mean HEY, who's gonna make me stay in the house when there's a full sun outside? I'm planning on bringing up my grades up... that's kinda one of the hardest things for me to do though. I can't focus on school. I can't take it serious. High School ain't no joke. It's actually only getting harder and harder. I'm holdin on though... I'm not giving up. Things always get better. IN OTHER WORDS; Me and my... EX Boyfriend decided to take a little "Break. I guess that's what we're calling it? It sucks though. I hate it. I kinda think this.. "break" is saying "Shayla, you and him shouldn't be together, because he doesn't WANT You guys to be together. This "break" will continue until you realize you can get along fine without him". The thought of me just moving on gives me goose bumps. Like, what the hell? I can't even imagine being with someone else right now. And everyones in my face like "MOVE ON" but i'm standing alone like "Not quite yet...". I Just know there's something more to this. Moving on isn't as easy as everyone tries to say. Let me throw a perfect boy that you've loved for almost 6 months, and tell you to move on. It's nearly impossible. All these voices are driving me crazy. I'm hearing so many different things from so many different people. Voices about school, voices about hard work, voices about love, voices about happiness, voices that say "I need advice", voices that say "Let me give you advice", voices that THINK they know, voices that wish they did, and voices that just flat out want to be heard. So what now? ... WHAT now?