I Can't Sleep Tonight

I Can't Sleep Tonight ... I wish I could. God knows I do, but I can't. I'm to busy thinking. I'm laying here looking at the ceiling THINKING. I'm such a looser. I'm thinking about... Stuff... My life. Why I'm a confused wreck. One second I'm a happy shining sun, and the next low and in the dumps. I've screamed in my pillow... And that didn't even work. Weird huh? I've talked to my mom and friends... I've even tried explaining to my brother, but there's just no words for it. Ya know what I mean? Probably not... I've never felt like this before. I don't know if it's something physical, or mental. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I don't know if I'm just down right being dramatic. I just don't know. Haven't been feeling like myself lately, and I'm really trying to figure out why. It's like... I'm happy... But I'm not. Am I making any kinda sense right now? It's so hard to explain. It's on the tip of my tongue, but it won't show up in my head. I'm trying to pull myself together, but I can't even think of ways to do that. I feel like Vinny off jersey shore. Except I'm not homesick? I'm in a "Funk" as the jersey cast would say. Haha ! Well... I'm laying here feeling like an empty robot, hoping that SOMETHING will help me understand it all. I'm getting nothing. It's ALL BAD ! Lol Even my mom has been telling me I haven't been myself. That's when you KNOW something isn't right. I don't mean to cause trouble or worry. I'm really trying to be me. I guess my hardest isn't enough. I guess I'll keep tryin... Well, I needa get some sleep now. Goodnight.