The Highlight Of My Past Week

No one's probably gonna wanna read this blog because I kinda decided to be selfish today and talk about how I'm feeling. I kinda just gotta write it all out so I can see it and catch up ya know? What should I name this blog? The Highlight Of My Past Week ... ? Ok, whatever. Lets go with that. So... Easter made me realize how much I've grown up. Like... I'm really not a kid anymore. Easter egg hunts REALLY aren't fun anymore. It kinda sucks... Being a kid made life so fun, and when you get older it's like... Dang. What happened to all the excitement. Now it's like we've gotta entertain ourselves!
I talked to my dad the other day. He called me at nine in the morning before I even woke up, and seemed like he could have just cried. I respect that he called me. He said he's never been more unhappy with his life. He told me the whole story from start to finish. I sat there... I listened and let him know he had my full attention. He told me he didn't know what to do... I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to react. I never saw him like that. He took a long pause and said "You know how right now you have all these dreams and plans for your life? You wanna go to college and be something that will get you somewhere. You want the family, and the kids... I use to be like that... and I never knew it was gonna end up like this." Maybe that's what hit me the hardest. Everyone eventually figures out their dream and lays it out infront of them, but no one ever thinks about what they're gonna do if it doesn't happen. They're so focused on their dream that reality takes over. I told my dad these exact words and I don't think he'll ever forget them. I said "Dad... There's always a start, and it's never too late. I know right now you feel like your stuck and theirs nothing left to do but be miserable, but your wrong. There's answers, and I think you've had enough of unhappiness to actually try to find them. Don't give up... & If there's no one that thinks you can do it, shit, look to me. There's always a start...". He didn't say anything. I don't know if he was thinking about it, or if he ended up shedding a tear, but everything I said was true. If you don't give up then you'll always have a chance to see a better day.
Well... I went to a funeral thing. My first actually. I'm good at alot of things, and I can handle alot of things, but death is my absolute weakness. I can't. It hurts my stomach thinking about it. I'm the type of person that believes no one should doe young because there's always something that could have kept them alive... Even cancer. There's people out there that are taking everyday of their life to figure out the cure for cancer. No one knows when, but one day someone is going to discover it and save BILLIONS of lives. They're also can have BILLIONS of dollars. Haha! Back to the point though. I realized that life is as short as you make it. I hate that qoute "Life isn't short, we just underestimate it". Wait... WHAT? Life is incredibly short. If you don't believe life is short then your not living it to the fullest. You might not even be happy. Life is shorted than anything you could ever experience. Life is pure love. That's all it is. If yur not loving then your not living. Seeing that woman that I once knew lay there... Not moving, not breathing, not laughing or talking or smoking kinda made me want to rewind time. Rewind back to all the little things that made us all love her. Cancer is a murderer. Life is a murderer too... But we love it.
One of my guy friends texted me because he needed some advice. There's this girl he does EVERYTHING for. He takes her everywhere she needs to go. He wrote on his car asking her to prom, he buys her everything she could ever want... and she doesn't like him not one single bit. She wouldn't even go to prom with him. All those other guys only like her for one thing, but him... He likes her for HER. She doesn't even realize it. He's told her a thousand times, but she doesn't get it. He sent me a 7 page text. I read it about 3 times. I wanted to truly understand it. I replied with a text just as long. I told him that sometimes you have to move on. It's just apart of life. Moving on is what makes your life move forward and allows better things to happen. I told him that he's perfect the way he is and one day he's gonna meet a girl that appreciates every bit of it. She's gonna fall in love with everything he is. I told him that life doesn't always work the way we want it to, and girls are difficult. Which we are... Girls don't want the cute, nice, corny guy that does everything for her. Girls want the sexy douche bags that can have any girl he wants and treats them like crap. It makes absolutely no sense right? That's just the way some of us work... Not all... But some. I wish I could type out what he told me, but it'd take all day. He replied with a message that I had to make sure was for me. He told me I was right... He told me that that there's nothing in this world that could let me know how much he appreciates everything I said and how much I helped him. He told me he knows I'm going to do big things in the future because I have a good head on my shoulder and a beautiful mind. He said that I'm everyones dream girl and he hopes the boy I have never lets me go. He said that he hopes our relationship continues to grow and becomes something I've always wanted. He told me he's always here when I need him and he'll try his best to help me. Everything I want to tell you he said just makes me so happy. It makes me feel like the words I speak are useful. No one ever tells me thank you for helping them. No one takes a half hour to type out everything he said. No one. I wish you guys could have read it. It's nice to know that someone cares every once in a while ya know? It's nice to know how much someone appreciates you. I couldn't have asked for a better response. But at the end of the day I do what I do because I like it. I do it to make people feel better about themselves and know that everything can always get better. I don't lie. I keep it real. I think that's what my readers and advice takers like the most. I'll never lie to you. I'll tell you if your wrong and let you know when your right. I'll talk you through everything you need help with and explain why what I'm saying is right. I'm know genius or professional... But I think that's why you guys like everything I say. Because I'm just normal person like you. I live this crazy everyday life JUST like you.
Well... Lastly... I went to a baseball game in freezing cold wheather. I have to say that's the first. You know you love someone when nothing could possibly stop you from supporting them and being there for them. I love my baseball player. I'm his biggest fan as a matter of fact. I told him I'll always be here when he needs me. Rain or shine, Cold or hot. He's got me. Love is so strong that you never realize how much your IN love until you start to notice the little things. I will never let my baseball player down. He's my boyfriend and my BEST friend... and I promised I'd never leave. I will run the globe and back for that boy... Nothing can make us weaker but ourselves. What we have is something I never want to loose.
Well....... Thats the end of the recap of my boruing life. Sorry it was so long and pointless. Hope you guys read the next one. Haha! Toodles!