You're Beautiful You

Ever felt so down right ugly that you barely felt like looking at yourself? And what does it mean when people say 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"? Well... we've all felt that way before, and I'll tell you what that means... It means that beauty is whatever and wherever YOU think it is. Beauty is so many different things to so many different people. What's ugly to one may be beautiful to another. Self beauty is love. It's looking in the mirrior and loving what you see. I feel ugly... ALOT. I'm just human though. Sometimes I feel like theirs no possible way that anyone could ever think of me as anything but ugly. Sometimes I feel like staying in the house all day because feeling ugly in public gives me an awkward feeling like everyones staring at me. And sometimes... It just takes someone to look you in the eyes and say "You look beautiful today"to make you feel otherwise. Being told I'm beautiful or pretty gives me butterflys almost every time. Don't you get tired of being called "Sexy", and "Bad", and "Fine"? I do... Can a guy just have some politeness once in a while to say "Hey, my names Billy Bob and I just wanted to tell you you're really pretty."? Is that too much to ask? I'm one of those girls that you probably think wears too much makeup... Ask me if I care... Makeup is kind of my escape. It lets me hide my uglyness for a few hours and let no one know the real me. I guess you can call it a disguise. Haha Makeup is fun. It makes being a girl so exciting. Don't get me wrong though... Some days I wake up, look in the mirrior and feel GORGEOUS without a slight trace of makeup on... As a matter of fact, I do that alot. It doesn't always make you pretty, but it makes you FEEL pretty.  I'm not gonna sit here and lie to you, so I'll sit here and tell the truth... I'm the type of person that makes myself into the person that everyone wants to see. I know... Sounds bad, but I told you I wasn't gonna lie, right? I just like to be the girl that people stop and say "You are REALLY pretty... and your hair is perfect. I wish I had hair like you." It probably sounds selfish, but I can't help it. There's no problem with that though. I like attention. Giving people things to say about me is just what I like. Good or bad. And you're probably reading this like "Um... This bitch is horribly conceited and stuck up, and I hate her blog now." But lets be real... You're like that too. You may not care what people think about you, but like me, you like to be complimented, and feel like something special in people's eyes. That's what I'm trying to say. If you don't like the way I look, dress, act, or my statements... Fine, but I know there's many others who do. Looks is a hard task when it comes to society. It's complicated. Society has an image of what people should look like. I guess it's what they precieve to be 'Normal', but who cares? Be who you wanna be... Look how you want to look. You don't have to be a size 0, to be beautiful. You don't have to have perfect skin and shiney teeth. You don't have to have long flowy hair and bright eyes. You don't have to be a model or a cheerleader. You don't have to be a nice pushover. You don't have to be a teacher's pet with straight A's. You don't have to have expensive clothes and brand new shoes. If you feel beautiful, and you look in the mirrior everday and think "I feel great", then why do the opinions of naive people matter... ? They don't. You're beautiful. You're you... You're beautiful you.